Archive | November 2011

The cold has come…

I borrowed this from Kate.

Winter is the worst time of year for me. It’s not just the weather. It’s also the kids in school and the holidays. There is so much stress. I’m in pain most of the time. I was falling asleep last night and I had to write something… this is what I came up with…

I know who I am but what am I becoming?

Year by year, month by month, day by day I change.

The pain gets worse but my mind… it’s still strong!

I joke. I laugh. I cry.

I try to fill my days so I can forget, but it only reminds more that I can’t.

I pay for everything that I do.

It pulls apart my inner being.

I try to stay strong!

My mind is whittling away bit by bit.

My memory is receding, but my mind still wants to be strong!

I feel guilt. I feel sorrow. I feel emptiness.

My mind is trying to remember to stay strong!

I may wither when things are bad, but my mind will be stronger in the end!


Sorry for any grammatical errors or it not being in the right form. That was what I got from my husband and his daughter… I’m glad they understand me.


I’m sorry, I know my husband understands or tries to. He is really wonderful and I am truly lucky to have him. He just doesn’t know how to deal with it sometimes. I usually joke about it and he tried to joke with me about my post and I got upset. It hurt my feelings. I’m not always easy to read so I understand. I love you Sweetie and I’m sorry I got upset. I’m just in pain and having a hard time dealing with things lately.



… I’m starting to wonder if I have a life. I make bread and bagels. I talk to myself on Facebook when no one talks back. I am addicted to Pinterest. I spend more time Pinning then doing. I crochet as much as my hands will let me. I clean. I talk to myself and my animals since I’m home all day by myself. I call them lazy when they won’t help around the house. What a bunch of freeloaders. I take naps almost everyday. Ummm… what else…

Felted Purse

I was so excited about the purse that I made for my S-I-L that I decided to give it to her for her birthday. I made myself a little one. That is the real reason I gave her hers. 🙂 I wanted to use mine, but if I did she would know what I made for her. I made the mistake of telling her that I was making me something similar.  Here is her purse!

Before felting…

After felting…

I realized I don’t have a pic of hers after I dried it. This pic has pins in it and card board to stretch it to the correct shape.

You can find the pattern here if you want to try it yourself!


I made some yummy pretzels! I love my bread maker. I wish I would have realized it earlier. LOL! I made the dough in my machine and here are the pictures of the rest of the process!!!

Once the dough is ready you roll it out and cut it into strips and twist them into position. Pop them in the oven for a few minutes and then you boil them for a few minutes.

Drain them for a few minutes.

Brush them with egg whites and water, add your salt and cook them for about 25 minutes.

Take them out and you have yummy pretzels to eat!

They are now all gone. They didn’t last long at all! Next time I think I will make them a little fatter. Sooooo yummy!!!

Johnsonville Party!

At the beginning of October I was able to host a House Party for Johnsonville! I really don’t like pepperoni so this was perfect for me! 🙂

Since I learned about grilling pizza I’ve decided it’s the only way for me!

The best husband in the whole wide world!!!

Our awesome pizza bar! Everyone brought their favorite toppings so we had a bunch to choose from!

Making the pizzas!

We cooked the pizza in the oven since there were so many of them. I usually put them on the grill on the non-heat side.

We had a great time that night. We had almost 20 people there. It was a great party and I’m so glad that I could enjoy it with my friends and family!


So the doc thinks I’m having mini seizures. From my latest description and the meds I’m on that is the route we are heading in now. I’m on a new medicine, Lamictal. He said it is for seizures and very safe. Not sure what his idea of safe is when the warning says I can get a life threatening rash!?! LOL! What kind of rash is life threatening? I did find that Lupus can cause these types of seizures. My old Rheumy said I was in the beginning stages of Lupus. Does this mean I’m further along now? Blah, all this sucks.

For having a new diagnosis I think I handled it pretty well. I usually freak out and drink too much. I must be getting used to this shit.

So, we now have Sjogren’s Syndrome, maybe Lupus, Fibromyalgia, and Raynaud’s. I wonder how many more I can add before the end of the year.